没有烟抽的日子
没有烟抽的日子　没有烟抽的日子
我总不在你身旁
而我的心里一直　
以你为我的唯一的
唯一的一份希望

天黑了　路无法延续到黎明
我的思念一条条铺在 那个灰色小镇的街头
你们似乎不太喜欢没有蓝色的鸽子飞翔　啊～

手里没有烟那就划一根火柴吧
去抽你的无奈
去抽那永远无法再来的一缕雨丝　喔～

在你想起了我以后
又没有烟抽的日子　喔～


really like this song. though people may say wah this song ask people to smoke ah.
pls la, look at the lyrics, so nicely written.
then if you listen to ah-mei's version, wahh.. can melt into the song ah.

these few days i felt peace.
and need more self discipline.
though i think i need to face my emotions more properly.
and stop burying them alive.
but it's scary to face them.
because it feels so much better to bury them alive.
anyway, if God wants me to face it, i can't ran away.
and He reminded me. through people that im escaping again.

thank God also, that some people pointed out something i should improve.
perhaps that's the problem la.
i just hope i can be forgiven and given a chance to let me try all over again.
but it's difficult because when a person say it doesn't matter anymore. nothing matters, nothing will help.
i can only pray and hope God will make things better.
because giving up is not what i'll do.
i need time.
and lots of prayers.

ah, the korean class i attended was boring... initially la. haha
coz the teacher was teaching all the syllabus like the ah yee woo..
then i place my head on my palm and keep yawning and almost fell asleep.
though the teacher quite funny. keep telling jokes.
but i guess that's my 'kuan' la. in class.
it made me feel a bit happier though. like learning something in a class setting.
like back to jc life, when xiujin is sitting beside me. but the difference is that the girl sitting beside me reminds me of eveline. haha i mean she looks a bit like her la.
oh man, i wish school can start soon, when i can write chinese words in every assignment im given, do things i've never tried in my whole life, make really good friends, know some hot guys. haha. okay la. maybe hot guys not that important.
maybe the most impt thing is that i have excuse not to work. haha
working is really so sian.
i rather stress myself up for exams, projects and assignments. than making myself depress because im working some jobs that i don't like.
but im sure when im stressed up for exams, projects and assignments, i'll complain working is so much better.
humans are so difficult to be satisfied.
haiz. anyway why i link to this.
err.. recently i've been observing the way my thoughts form and what im think everytime when i talk to people to expresing myself.
it's like very funny sometimes, i'll side track a lot. and i'll say what's on my mind.
i can even talk to myself sometimes and they'll conflict. like 2 sides conflicting.
and when im angry, my logic will be put to sleep.
then i'll always regret for what i said.
that one have to really improve la.
oh and when my brain is tired or not working, usually i don't know what im talking about.
like it'll go on auto-pilot mode.
then when im high i can say many stupid things.
and won't feel embarrassed until i realised what i've said.
it's amazing how brain works ah.
but i guess i need lots of control and discipline la.
cannot like angry then anyhow say things. or when brain not working also anyhow.
anyway i was talking about my korean class right.
yah so it's a lazy-people language la.
no intonations, monotonous and dun need to open your mouth too much can talk already.
oh don't need to smile or give eye contact also.
haha which is good for me. coz sometimes im afraid to give eye contact. esp when im uncomfortable.
anyway, i still prefer japanese la. maybe because it resembles chinese in someways.
okay if i continue, it'll be a boring post with many of my random thoughts.
i think i smell so i need to bathe! haha my strawberry soap, here i come~ xiangxiang^^