imagine one person sitting on your right telling you something that is totally different from the person sitting on your left. at the same time.
how will you respond?
who to look at first? who to reject first? who to listen first.
imagine one person pulling your left arm asking you to go somewhere with him/her and another person pulling your right arm asking you to go somewhere opposite. at the same time.
how you will respond?
who to follow? who to reject? who to let go.
it's like a difficult decision.
because you clearly know one side is definitely wrong.
one side is definitely right.
your heart vs God.
it feels like you're being pulled apart by a bad friend you've known for ten years and a good friend you've known for 1 year.
you know that that bad friend will bring you around, do bad things, make you sad but you feel comfortable because you've been with that friend for ten years.
but you also know that that good friend will bring you do things you really enjoy, make you really happy. but feel uncomfortable because you need to let go of your bad friend first.
there's this book that i've read that talks about how does a person sin.
Step1: THE WILL (center of choice)
chooses to allow anger, fear or sinful desires to take root in the mind.
Step2: THE MIND (center of thought)
Nurtures the sinful attitudes that grow out of anger and fear, affecting the emotions
Step3: THE HEART(center of emotion)
Triggers actions that displease God.
Step4: THE STRENGTH (the body)
Commits the sin that began in the will
i've been thinking about this. at first i didn't understand.
now i do. everything begans with choice. but then there're like so many other things that will affect your choice.
like emotions and thoughts but yet, it's your choice to allow those thoughts and emotions.
how to put it. haha. im like complicating it.
it's okay. aiyah it's very difficult la. because still got things like experience and upbringing.
it's so difficult being a human.
vinc said today, that pigs are living a better life than humans.
we pay so much to eat a packet of rice and pigs play in the mud to eat a packet of rice. plus rice prices are rising. haha. but in the end, we eat the pigs.
but i wouldn't want to become a pig leh. so much fats and oil and overweight and cannot look up to the sky.
anyway, that's random and i side tracked. sorry. haha
oh i keep having lots of funny dreams.
then the next day super tired. keep sleeping around.
like went to waiyee's house and fell asleep. then today kai en they all came over to my house, i fell asleep too.
imagine they so noisy. (got waiyee, likuan, shumei, jj and mf) and i still can fall asleep. haha.
then some dreams made me so happy that i can wake up and feel so high and happy. ahaha.
quite dumb. some can continue after i wake up and sleep again.
am still having lots of thoughts about many other things. which i think i'll blog about it when i have a clearer mind. now very tired and sleepy. haha.
okay have a good monday tmr. i know many of my dear friends are starting school tmr. haha.
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