life stories..

working in a polyclinic, interviewing people feels sad at times, listening to the people's life stories.
some are so lucky to have children responsible enough to take care of them, and when asked if they are satisfied with their life, you will say YES!
some are not so lucky to have responsible children to take care of them, and when asked if they are satisfied with their life, they hestitate and say soso larh.

there was this uncle who i've interviewed told me a little about his life.
i felt so sad for him.
he's suffering from so many illnesses, diabetes, high blood pressure, leg problems..
when asked if his relationship with his family members are good, he just say: oh when it comes to money issues, then good lor. when it's not, then bad. so what you think?
i just: err... haha what do you think?
quite sad la.
then when i ask if he's happy with his life he say: sometimes i feel like dying, i'm so useless, i can't work and have to rely so much on my wife that's earning hundreds per month. she gives me $2 per day only. how to live with such little amount of money? life is so meaningless.
i had this urge to spread gospel to him. im not sure if i can.
but this old man, need our God.
he looks like a loan shark to me. had some tatoos on his arm. at first i was a little scared talking to him la. but after a while i feel so sad for him.
imagine a man so energetic when young, then grow old, so many illnesses then children so unfiliar somemore.
if i were him i'll also think the same way.
i could only say: aiyoh.. don't think in this way la..

then some people under so much pressure, that by picking up a call and cause his blood pressure to shoot and almost sent to A&E.
when i saw the readings on the machine, i was so shocked. panicked a little and asked for help.
he seems okay la. but his blood pressure... wah. so high until can get stroke.

see those uncles. so skinny. sit on wheelchair.
aunties so worried about their grandchildren. get stressed up when their exams come.
life's so sad sometimes.
my work showed me the harsh realities of the social world.
but at least i don't live to wait for the day i'm dead.
though im having this thinking to see what will be the reaction of the people around me if i die suddenly. haha
but if i die, i can't see right.
maybe should become bed ridden. haha.
okay la, very tired already.
im so happy xiujin's going to join me!
byebye~