time wasting.

i've regretted.
wasting so much time. haiya i knew that i will regret la.
i thought i've decided.
but other things made me waver.
and when i have the time to search for answers, finding God's will, i waste them.
stupid me, now i'm confused.
i thought i'm quite sure of my decisions already.
but there's this weird feeling about it.
howhowhow.
i'm really indecisive.

but oh, i've decided not to lose to the temptation of food today!
what a feat!
wahahha.
vincent brought us to far east to eat some mango drink.
it was SUPER NICE. but waiyee and i shared ice cream instead.
then i was so tempted to buy the mango drink.
i want to eat so so much. but the others asked me not to buy, coz it's expensive and it's fattening.
haha i struggled so so much lor! GRR.
though kai en wanted to pay for me. hahaha.
but i rejected! MUAHAHA.
and overcame the temptation of food!
it was so so difficult lor! HAIZ.
but it's my first step to break the controlling powers of FOOOOD!
haha. am so proud of myself!
okay, maybe i should be more disciplined and better exercise.
jog or swim or what.
because after dunno how many years old, 20? or 21? my weight will just increase like nobody's business. haha.
AND WAIYEE! BETTER ASK ME TO GO JOG NEXT TIME AH! IF NOT, I CHOP YYOUUU!

and im still waiting for my uni letter.
the invitation card for entering the school as a student... wahh
i can't help but drool when people told me they got it.
it's so difficult not to worry la. but i'm trying not to think so much.
the i keep imagining, when i get home, my mum will be shouting in joy like: OH GOT UNI LETTER!
and then i look at the letter, impatiently open it and read the words over and over again.
then blank for a while. stare at the air for a while.
then TELL EVERYONE! wahhahaha.
how i wish i can experience such a day.
still have to leave everything into God's hands la. no point worrying or envying or what.
okay, going to sleep soon for tmr's work! byebye!