Fly away

Now that exams are over, I have a 3-month holiday and I have been thinking how to use the time.

At first, I wanted to do volunteering work, it's something meaningful, and it allows me to plan my own time. However, zero income. I spoke to the bosses at home, to financially support my cause for the unprivileged, and they agreed. But after speaking to a volunteering organisation, I realised that 3 months is not enough. Volunteering work is about building relationships. It is a commitment. Well, I don't think I can commit anything more and turned my head to explore short term volunteering. It wasn't difficult as I found sgcares.org, however, I don't think I can keep looking for 2-3days events for 3 months, I simply do not have the discipline.

Then I thought, hey, I have always wanted to travel alone. I should start counting the money in my piggy bank and use it to travel to somewhere safe enough yet affordable. I checked the tickets to Hong Kong and it seemed like a possible option. I also managed to finally persuade my mum to let me go.

BUT, I am so fickle-minded!
I saw that there is a chance I can go for a 1 month exchange program in Korea next year, I had the urge to find a temporary job right now. I want to save money to go there, flaunt my korean and make korean friends. So I applied for all the job offers that interest me on the Internet. Within a few hours, I had scheduled myself for 3 interviews.

It's so amazing things can happen and change within a night and I am still not sure whether I still wanna do volunteering work, travel or get a job. I wanna use my time well, I wanna experience life and I wanna be a better person (and Christian) after the holidays. Yet I am not sure how can I achieve that. I have so many considerations, church on Sundays, korean lessons on saturday afternoons, dms, yang and 남친, events here and there.. I always thought I am a person who is sure of what I wanna do, but I guess I don't. And ironically, I always tell my group mates to believe in the God who knows your needs and answers prayers, in times like this, I find myself not believing in it. I don't believe that God would answer my prayers in a short time (He's well known to keep asking people to wait), and I don't believe that I will come like what He wants me to do.

Well, I guess this can be the first step to become a better Christian!