the worn out woman

bought a new book at sks: the worn out woman.
haha i thought it's a good book because when i flipped through it has lots of steps to overcome emotional, physical, spiritual struggles, so i've decided to buy it.
IT IS a good book, with lots of small little meaningful notes around.
HOWEVER, i guess it's more suitable for older females. haha.
aiyah i just read lor. it's simple and short. and encouraging la.

the book started with:
"From now on, I am going to grab the good times with both arms.
I am going to walk outside and feel the sun on my face and learn to laugh , really laugh again.
Most of all, I'm going to take the love that comes my way and hold on to it for dear life.
Sometimes we don't need new scenery, just new eyes."

Dawn Miller



Very cool right.
yah, i guess i am going to do that!
the last sentence caught my attention. and i couldn't understand it until i thought for a few minutes.
yah, really have to be contented with what i have, and not focus with what i don't have.
it all depends what i am focusing at.
i need new eyes to look at the positive things, to focus on what i have, and focus on God.
even if the scenery around me changed, as long as i stay focus, i won't waver.
it's difficult, like today's sermon, it says we really have to take up our cross and follow the Lord. we have to sacrifice. we have to 吃苦. because God wants to use us for His purposes.
i really need lots and lots of discipline. haha.
I've decided that i will not allow myself to be overly emotional for more than 5 minutes! ahaha.
very strict? i dunno. but at least i have something to work on.
it's working i guess. though there was this incident that made me really really sad.
i allowed my tears to fall, allowed my heart to break.
but i told myself, after these, i must face people and smile.
though i remained quite down for the next half an hour.
at least it was better than last time. haha.
and when i reached church, it was really a lot better. haha.
NO ONE SAY I LOOKED SAD OR WHAT! YAY! ahaha. means im successful.
haiyah i'm not trying to hide or what, it's just overwhelming emotions that i want to control it.
Wei en said before: There're other more important things to do.
YAH LOR. i can't forget this thing he said and it reminded me everytime when im getting emo.
haha wei en always say classical things and always leave deep impressions.
(Oh, and i practised guitar manymany!)


"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8: 38-39