the second blow

and here comes the second blow.
luckily, i'm well prepared for the truth that's coming.
aiyah, perhaps i've asked for it.
but i'm really curious to find out.
what really happened. how she felt. what was the circumstances like.
and it all seemed obvious la.
don't know why i went to ask.



haha was talking just talking to my mum.
asking her, what kind of baby i was.
she say im those very slow-three-beats kind of baby. coz i took lots of time to come out. haha.
and since young i've been an insecure baby.
i had this habit of touching my mum's chin to sleep when i was young. i thought i had this habit when i was like 4 or 5 years old.
today my mum told me, since i was a baby i had this habit. haha
and i sleep a lot. they have no problems taking care of me because i'll be sleeping whole day. haha. so like a pig.
so surprising that i actually forgot so many things.
then the most interesting thing she old me was that, when i was really small, they put me in a childcare.
and then i was bullied by this boy.
then i will have bad nightmares and cry in the middle of the night.
then whenever they want to send me to the childcare, i'll crycrycry.
then when i'm at home i'll say nothing, stay in a corner and crycrycry.
then my parents asked i also never say anything. just cry.
i didn't know i was an emo kid. haha.
cry so much. walau.
then my parents went to ask the principal to investigate.
in the end they realised got this boy keep bullying me lor! poor little xiaoling.
and my mum say that boy very naughty. even now his parents can't even control him.
and i can't remember a single thing about what happened that time.
haha i was so shocked when i asked about the details.
i only remember i was in a childcare, had a few nice friends and that's all.
then change school. haha.
im not sure if all these will lead to who i am now.
but it's always interesting to know what happened when we were really young.
EH, i WAS a reserved and shy girl when i WAS young, sweet and small okayyy..
i AM still young and sweet but definitely not small. haha.
but im happy with who i am now. thank God.