i want to sigh loudly....................
HHHHHHAAAAAAAIIIIIZZZZZZZZZZ.
okay, then i should forget about things and move on.


i realised something when i was taking bus home after work today.
the way i escape things is to make myself seem happy.
because that's the only way i forget unhappiness.
it's like some people escape by playing games then by concentrating in that game, he's forgetting unhappiness.
wah then for me, it's happiness that covers the unhappiness.
like woah.
i never realised.
no wonder i keep thinking there's this 2 side of me.
actually perhaps i'm using it as an excuse to escape things.
maybe actually i only have a side, but it splits when there's some unhappy things happened.
and that unhappy side is actually the real side of me. (when im unhappy la!)
woahwoahwoah.
im so complicated lor. die.
haha but im amazed at how human brains work and how different can people respond differently to adverse situations.


oh there's something i want to share that i've learnt on saturday when talking to Olivia during the fellowship.
Olivia: oh i think i have to leave earlier today.
Me: Why?
Olivia: Coz i didn't have a good QT today, i didn't sleep well.
Me: HUH??
Olivia: Oh i've decided to have fruitful QT everyday. because time with God is something we deserved and we should fight for the time. it's your loss if you don't want it.
Me: wahhhhh.
Olivia: yah so you must FIGHT FOR IT!
haha. she's really cute and funny. i really love talking to her everytime.
and what she said is really impactful.
of course how she thinks is really what we all should think!

i'll talk about work another time la. which is most probably tmr! haha.
okay tell you all a little. it's 1000000000000x better than ups.
but when you all see me on friday, don't accuse me of being emo ah! because i can foresee that i'll be almost dead on friday.
and when im tired, i look like im emo.
haha. okay! to all my fellow brothers and sisters, whether you're down or you're happy,
this year will be the best year in our whole lives!
wait.
but on one condition: you must first desire and be willing to make this year the best!