God's will..?

what's God's will?
i've just received a rejection letter from ntu.
not very sad about it la.
but perhaps this may be the turning point of my life.
so much uncertainties that i'm not sure how.
"so what if nus accepted you?
you can't do what you really want."
my mum told me that.
she encouraged me to consider something else, even if nus accepted me.
which is to study overseas.
acutally i've been considering this when i was in jc. maybe even earlier when o levels is over.
but i didnt dare to voice to my mum last time because it'll mean much more burden for her,
because she definitely will support me.
and she'll leave it up to me to decide.
i'm considering taiwan.
to study linguistics. or foreign languages.
what i really want is to write things.
i always love to write, in chinese. haha
sit there stare at the blank space and think of things to write, and share to the world.
told my mum about it, she says no future. haha
i know la. but that's my dream.
but i'm afraid. really really afraid.
what will happen in the end.
but i will miss everything here.
something which will make me cry for days.
i just have to keep praying and get more info first.
praypraypraypraypray..

im not sure why i feel so not prepared/uncomfortable to tell many people about this,
maybe coz everything like not very sure.
but i just feel like sharing it la.
oh plus my uncle says he's willing to sponsor my eduction fees.
coz last time he's just like me!
yah, so like quite afraid but yet excited about it.
okay pls pray for me alright! thankyou!