memories...

it's really late now.
and i took almost three hours reading most of the previous posts i've written in this blog. [partly because i had supper and was having stomach upsets]
and also some of the other's blogs.
missed the days a lot.
tears flowed.
it's doesn't feel as if it's the past.
everything seems so fresh, like it just happened yesterday.
i really liked the simple life i'm leading in the past, though i was really complaining a lot of jc life.
jc seems to be an excuse for me to run away things then.
some responsibilities, some things that i have to do.
now, there's nothing much in my life to share. like so sad... ahaha.
but it's alright. soon, soon i will have things to share already.

saturday had the second tuition session with that kid. i realise, i forgot his name already. ahaha.
i was still nervous and my stomach was feeling unwell AGAIN.
maybe i felt pressurised la. this time i didnt really lao sai at that kid's house but i kind of tolerated the sai.
which means not that bad la. haha. the second session was good i guess.
i asked him: is your other tutor good?
him: *shakes head*
me: why? very boring ah?
him: *nods very hard*
me: is she old?
him: *shakes head*
me: how old? twenty plus?
him: *nods*
me: so am i boring?
him: *smiles* *shakes head*
me: *flies to the sky~~~~~~*
ahaha, yah, he's a shy kid. but laughs to himself often.
i wonder if he's laughing at me or in his own world laughing at his own things.
haha, i just hope he'll improve laaaaaaa.
then went back to church for kukup publicity.
was feeling a little troubled over somethings. but was feeling a lot better when olivia and i started joking around, and she told me the things happened in the lab, her colleagues...
quite fun la.
then had dinner with mf and chatted until eleven! haha.
we were chased away by the people at the hawker. so funny.
but it was good sharing. though most of the time im the one talking. haha.
felt so pai seh to take up so much of her time and i think she had things to do. PAI SEH AH!

i asked someone: how's sunday?
and the reply was: sunday was brilliant!
haha yes, and i agreed. definitely a lot better than many other days.
and the random things that person did really made me smile. haha. though it was a little scary but thank you! :)
oh, my lastlastlast time growth camp seeker, hansheng smsed me!
woo! missed him! last time he was still a P5 kid then.
and i keep pulling him to follow me around, then i joked and crapped a lot then.
now he's like sec 3 already!!
wow... and im getting older too! when i was involved in growth camp, being assistant group leader, i was just sec 3.
now, waiting for a's! haha. time really flies.

haha, don't know what else to say.
i feel like i've been repeating things over and over again.
but those emotions keep filling me these few days.
the desire to be occupied, the desire to obey God, getting nostalgic, blablabla.
i realised last time i used to end with a verse at the end of my blog.
now like gone ah.. shall continue putting verses.

and likuan, if you're reading this, pleeeeeease, go and look for a job and get yourself occupied!
make use of your time to earn some money for poly and gain life experiences!
you have things you want to buy, you have things you want to do.
so be motivated! i know you're uncomfortable being alone but life is like that, you have to try venturing out and see things for yourself.
the definition of being alone may not be because there is an absence of people, but rather, absence of God.
let's continue trying okay, to make full use of the time God gave us, and be disciplined! haha. though i slack a lot too.

"For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ." 2 Cor 10:3-5